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Realized it.
I've been doing my best for a little recognition for some years, even doodling or drawing ideas
that I thought can show off cool, unique attributes that no one in the entire Poke-fandom will consider of doing, ever.
Especially with about 85% of said fandom HATES Pokemonkeys.
Yet... hardly a person bats an eye. I get very little else on FA (and Inkbunny), too.
...Do I suck? Does my ability to put out artwork is so bad, the whole world see me as nonexistant this entire time?
You know, I didn't create those hybrids just for myself. I had thought ONCE got a lead. Heck, I assumed brilliantly mixing Ninetales, an veteran fav among the masses and first candid Pokemon in the Dex, can help score big points.
The tribalpom? Ha, who else but my close friends care about a chief to a powerful race on a island, bearing a long heritage on
friendly history and their ways of life?
I am certainly convinced that if your art is not porn, you will get zero validation to your well-being, as people never knew you were around. >.>
It tells me on a second notice you either "get gud" or GET OUT. One may think of himself as needy or whatnot, though after 4/5 years of contributing pictures, you too be livid/non-peaceful. Thinking of why your hobby is a graveyard's trip.
I've been doing my best for a little recognition for some years, even doodling or drawing ideas
that I thought can show off cool, unique attributes that no one in the entire Poke-fandom will consider of doing, ever.
Especially with about 85% of said fandom HATES Pokemonkeys.
Yet... hardly a person bats an eye. I get very little else on FA (and Inkbunny), too.
...Do I suck? Does my ability to put out artwork is so bad, the whole world see me as nonexistant this entire time?
You know, I didn't create those hybrids just for myself. I had thought ONCE got a lead. Heck, I assumed brilliantly mixing Ninetales, an veteran fav among the masses and first candid Pokemon in the Dex, can help score big points.
The tribalpom? Ha, who else but my close friends care about a chief to a powerful race on a island, bearing a long heritage on
friendly history and their ways of life?
I am certainly convinced that if your art is not porn, you will get zero validation to your well-being, as people never knew you were around. >.>
It tells me on a second notice you either "get gud" or GET OUT. One may think of himself as needy or whatnot, though after 4/5 years of contributing pictures, you too be livid/non-peaceful. Thinking of why your hobby is a graveyard's trip.
There should be more tribal foots arts out there.
Ummm... this is not very good. What is wrong with you people? No way I'm handling such a niche alone. Heck, characters like Elena (Street Fighter) are still a bit under the radar. Her charms alone should've made her widely known, but folks flock to JURI of all females because she's more on the nose with the foot funnies (to the point of sole in face *cough*). : V https://static.wikia.nocookie.net/capcomdatabase/images/e/ec/SFIIIElena.png/revision/latest?cb=20190227000241 https://static.wikia.nocookie.net/capcomdatabase/images/4/4e/Elena_SFXTK.jpg/revision/latest?cb=20120411123804 This may seem like the weirdest journal entry in my career to speak about, but considering what site I'm putting this on, it ought to be all right. It MUST be told. I mean, not long ago, I was presenting the world how much people slept on Tainá (cartoon version). WHY is there such a incredible shortage of her doing cute 'n cool stuff on the net? You'd think being a tribal barefooter would make her a
Haven't used this ancient thing in ages...
I know it's not exactly close to New Year's, nonetheless, I would like to say stuff has been down and a little up. It's not everyday you live through long-friend abandonment pain, get your art spirit killed for a year's worth of days, and have a guy or two help healing your crushing depression. It's nearly Christmas as I type this in, yet I miss being the under-tree, seeking- pretty-lights youngling of joy I used to be. Time without going back bites a big one. Bleck... 'least there's people to embrace me. Still, I can be a little cheery for the few good events popped up on my end. Must be the late growing status of acception though trials by turmoil. Wouldn't mind if life gets more better next year. I certainly appreciate it the most sincerity.
I'm freaking moving on.
I'm tired being the Prince of Sorrow. You read me right; old friend cut ties with me? I noted him final time to QUIT him and his lousy attitude/abuse. He even had the gall to say "best wishes" to me and my new mentioned friend, that I JUST told him, of. THEN, he seals me away, probably while popping confetti as if he's in a Rio Carnival, from the sheer TONE of the last note. No sincere effs were given about me for months. PLUS, I'm outcasted in all the sites we used to share. And he doesn't care how damaged I am. I hope he grows old, cold, alone and be so decayed in life that none, I repeat, NONE of his family members even LIVE to see him in such a lifeless state. The trash-heap who once I shared a relationship typed like he was HAPPY to see me quit. This is why I barely get to know people, because I get emotionally burned BY them, JUST... LIKE... THIS. I HATE humanity sometimes, and what went wrong to me doesn't restore my faith in it. That is all.
I just want to give up on everything.
My life is null. Months close of a year's worth passed... and still nothing I cannot do. I tried to bear with the pain, but it's all so tiresome. I tried to enjoy life, but I kept getting mental reminders of how much I'm a failure by genetic design. On top of this, my friend has completely left me for dead, with no words or caring about my mental health for a month of June + nearly 2 weeks into July. I kept trying to work with him, and I get completely ignored like I never existed. He thinks I'm honky-dory without him or think I just need him to "feel superior". I'm not. I'm been in Personal Depression Hellzone for so long, I forgot to actually love myself or enjoy life. And on top of all THIS, my artist drive hasn't been flowing for nearly a year. I don't know what to do with myself. I can't force jack-shiz to move forward and I been like this for a loooong while. Some say a guy should bear a pair and suck it up. I can't. I literally can't. I'm the bonding type of
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Your artwork is really creative ;0 I like it You do not suck at all..
If it helps, I could introduce you to a group I just got introduced to today that promotes artists? :
If it helps, I could introduce you to a group I just got introduced to today that promotes artists? :